To vacilate...

To fluctuate in mind or opinion; to be unsteady or inconstant; to waver.

Yep, that's me. To do Port (4 Nov) or Canberra (16 Dec) that is the question.

I have made 13 different decisions in the last few days, however I think I have made up my mind i.e. wait till Canberra.

Whilst the weekend's training wasn't fantastic, the brick session was heaps easier than I expected which gave me some hope. Monday saw an easy 12k run with inhisshadow. The Garmin wasn't working but it was done in 61:38 at about 5:10 pace (152). Yesterday, I woke up at 5:20 and headed out for a cycle. As a non-morning person, I don't think I have ever started training so early in the morning. It was surprisingly OK and a beautiful morning - it felt good to be out training when everyone else was in bed (and the roads were nice and empty). Headed up thru Seaforth and Frenchs Forest to Terry Hills, did a lap of Duffy's forest and then down to Church Point and then home for 60k. Pretty hilly ride so I was happy to do it in 2:19 @ 25.6 (150).

After doing 150k in 4 days with a couple of good runs as well I was feeling pretty good about myself and thought if I just have two big weeks of training I would be OK and ready to have a crack at Port. I certainly don't underestimate the half ironman, it frankly scares me to death. I will be unprepared no matter what and will definitely be at the back of the pack. "Suck in your ego and get out there and have some fun" was what I was thinking.

Then I went for my first swim in two weeks...

You can't expect to maintain the "small" amount of swim fitness you have gained if you have two weeks without getting in the pool at all. I think I was kidding myself. The 1.5k session was not good and made me realise that I needed more time to get ready. Yes I probably could get through 1.9k, (without stopping) but it would cause too many nerves for me to enjoy the build up to the day.

I guess it is no big deal however I have been imagining doing Port all year, I have holidays booked, had a plan to go up with Will and stay with Miners - it was going to be fun. Maybe I will still go up there - we'll see how we go.

OK - so 9 weeks to Canberra. Let's see what we can get done! The change of plans will allow me to make my tri debut in Nepean on 18 Nov, which will no doubt help. Whoever thought of doing their tri debut in a half ironman? The other good thing about doing Canberra is a few guys from work are doing it as well which should make it some fun. It will be the weekend after C2K where I am crewing for Spud, which is not an ideal taper, but she'll be right.

P.S. - to answer a few questions...

Shadow - my wife says shag carpet is back in and is in all the magazines - so shove it!

Jen - as the doctor was ripping off the tape last week (with little sympathy for the hair that was attached), I was definitely wishing I had shaved legs - but not enough to make me actually shave em!

Miners - yes 8cm! I have been doing some work on my set up and I realised how bad it was - shows you how much of a rooki I am. I think I could even go higher, but I will experiment in a staggered way. I am still a little uncomfortable in the tri bars, so will go get properly fitted, which is another benefit of delaying till Canberra. I feel like such a newbie!

What I look like...

What I want to look like...

My new Kitchen minus the tiles... (yes I did it myself!)